"When my world was crashing all around me
All my hope was gone
I was drowning in darkness
Barely hanging on
Out of the shadows you appeared
And helped me breathe again
So, when it all goes to black
I won't start to fall coz I can find you in the shadows."
- Shadows (Atomic Beats)
Do you know how it feels like when the world around you crumbles and everything you've known and will ever know disappears before your eyes? Do you know the feeling when you lose all hope and darkness engulfs your very being, the feeling of losing your will to live and you wish for everything to end eats you from the inside but you can't make it go away? Have you ever been unlucky enough to experience the pain of total helplessness and the feeling that you're stuck in your own skin, having to live your life, having to live through another day with nowhere to go?
The thing about feeling exactly this is when it's not you in said position, it's very hard for someone looking in to truly sympathize with what you're feeling. Though they offer words of comfort and encouragement, it takes more than that to bring you out to the light (if anything ever will). They can only say so much and after a while, they tell you to snap out of it, thinking you're being a child and that you're being difficult. It's hard for them to understand the magnitude and seriousness of what you're going through that's killing you.
When you hit rock bottom, your best friend should know to stick by your side and not leave you to drown in your tears even when you don't ask.
Though I see your silhouette in the shadows, feel your presence near the light, hear your words through the veil, I feel your grip slipping away.
Everybody want you to be happy and out from your darkness. We just can't find the correct words and can't find the correct way to say it to you. Nobody is perfectly and not even the world or mother nature.
ReplyDeleteI suppose I meant it as a generalization. Sometimes nothing anyone says or do can snap you out of it. When someone is in a world of pain, nothing ever will seem like the "correct word" or the "correct way" though there will be people behind you streaming a million words a minute trying to trigger a reaction and on occasions it does.
ReplyDeleteLike when your friend's love one dies. You never know what she really wants to hear. You sympathize and offer condolences but she's still extremely sad. There are times when she'll wish everyone would leave her alone and stop feeling sorry for her and when they do, she'll wish someone will keep her company. It's a tricky situation because nothing ever seems like the "right" thing to do.
They say time heals all wound. Does it really? When there's no other cure, I do suppose time is the only best bet we have.
The bottom line is we all love you...and you deserve to have the best!!!
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