A Celestial Insight: Do you fear death?

Have you ever felt yourself slipping away? When you feel like you're hanging on to a string that's slowly unraveling and there's nothing you can do to stop it from breaking. All you can do is hang on to the little glimmer of hope that's left and watch the thinning string slowly but surely coming apart. Nothing to grab on to, nothing to live for.

Having never studied psychology or any of the likes before, I can't pretend to say I understand what goes on in the mind of someone that's about to kill himself. In the moments of your life when you feel nothing but hopelessness and you can't think of a good enough reason of being or everything is going wrong when all you want is for one thing to go right, that's when you wish that everything would just stop and for it all to end. You curse the world and all in it for letting you live on when all you want is to disappear from the face of the Earth forever.

Do you fear death? Are you afraid to die? Ever met someone sure enough of himself to answer "no"? In another given situation if I ask him to calmly walk in front of a firing squad, would his answer still be the same knowing then his breaths, his heartbeats, his thoughts are numbered? What will he think then? Will he think of all the things he's never got to do in his short life? Will he think of all the things he still wants to do? Will he think of all his fondest memories with his family, with his wife, with his lover? Will he then wish he wasn't where he is now and that he wants to live for just another day, do all the things he wish he'd done, see the world one last time?

You might not fear death (hey, when I'm least expecting it, shoot me with a sniper right in my head) but I believe in everyone (or most at least) there is the fear of dying (hey, in a heist let me not be the one you're pointing the gun to my head at). See the difference? Is that perhaps why when someone wants to kill himself, he doesn't just takes a gun and shoots or why we don't see people walking right off the edge of the cliff? Before they pull the trigger, before they make the leap, there's that moment of hesitation. Hesitation of? Not wanting to die after all when coming face to face with death?

Dying I believe, is no simple thing. That's why when someone ever think of ending their life, they always try to think of the simplest, quickest, least painful way of doing it. At that moment in time, no doubt they just want it ended but when faced with it, we still hear stories of how someone managed to coax a man from jumping off a bridge or from a 69 stories building. That 'someone' probably said something along the line of "everything is going to be alright, it can't be all that bad, and you really don't want to do this." How does that 'someone' know? You're a stranger. You don't know the man that's about to jump. How do you know that everything's going to be alright? How do you know that it can't be all that bad? Do you know what his problem even is? How do you know the man really don't want to this? You don't. But then again, these people listen. While they're contemplating of jumping, all the thoughts of life goes through their head and it only takes an encouraging pep talk from someone who isn't their subconscious mind to convince them to do otherwise. And so they don't kill them self. Was it worth it though in the end?

If you're someone who never had a 'worst than a terrible day(s)' in your life, you might not have an inkling of an idea what I'm rambling on about but then again, you might just after all know what I'm trying to say.